Unexpected Blessing

Just a few minutes ago I opened my Yahoomail to recover a password of my Twitter account. I rarely checked this email, only times like this that I need to log to recover/change a password on the social networks that is associated with this account. So since Im already log-in after the verification process in Twitter, I go on and checked emails one-by-one and delete those are not important. As I progress reading through and deleting 1 email caught my full attention and I actually read it a few times before I went checked my other Paypal account. I received a payment on one of the affiliate websites I sign-up before. I never really give much attention to it and after installing the banner on one of my blog (of which I rarely update) I just left it and never monitored. Imagine my surprise receiving an amount of which is really a big help for me now since boss has not sent salary yet. And I had so many bills waiting for me to pay. Wheew!
God indeed never leaves me alone. He never fails to remind me to be patient with everything, to always hope for the best and to be always thankful of what I have right now. Surprises will come on the right time... in the right place, just like today! :)
Thank you God! I was so surprised that I got so emotional. I am amazed at God's grace even if this isn't the first time that He has helped and blessed me specially in times when I want to break down.

I was listening to my Emotera Playlist in Youtube that on a perfect timing the song "I Know You're Not Alone" by Sweetbox played. 

Meet Emotera Goddess!

Meet the blogger me Emoteragoddess and the simply me Venussmileygal :D It's time that I should make use of both nick and separate 2 different sides of me.
Is it a goodbye for Venussmileygal? Nah she will still be here to stay and make you smile online!

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Breaking Down

"Its Ok!" "It will pass...." "You'll be fine..." "Just smile..." "Think positive..." Sometimes no matter how many comforting words said to you by your friends its still don't ease the pain and confusion. Problems drag us down and break us even if we tried so hard to keep on track and solve it. Negativity. The most powerful energy that I've tried so hard not to get caught up with. But its still in just one touch it breaks everything that I built. I've always been trying to stay positive. To always look on the brighter and lighter side of everything. But now everything seems to be blurry. Maybe because I kept everything inside. And little by little it grows up inside me that I couldn't take it anymore. Too bad negative energy catch me easily. I maybe vocal to everyone but when it comes to serious matters, pains and problems I kept it inside. I used to pour this out but now the one person who use to patiently listen to me is already far. I'm so tired of crying . My tears has been my avid comforter ever since. If only I'm not afraid to die I would have killed myself already. I actually tried this many times yet its unsuccessful. Its hard just to let everything out because I don't know if they will understand me. Ive been to so many things in my life. So many mistakes. So many heartaches and pains. So many sins. And behind all this battle I fought alone. Its hard but I had no choice, its do or die.

I don't know if there's someone who would understand and listen to everything I would tell. Its been a long, unhappy journey and I doubt it if there would be someone who can endure it. And in the end comforts me with a hug and wipe my tears. I don't know where, I don't know when and I don't know where... But one things for sure I need some one who will see me as I AM not for who I have and don't have.

My New Look!

Hey yah all! Got a new look today. These past few days I had been working from 9 in the morning to 12 midnight facing the computer because of some deadline to catch for work. The result is that my eyes aches and I have to wear my graded eyeglasses again. I haven't worn this for many years already and I’m not used to it anymore. But I have no choice I have to wear this until my eyes are not aching anymore.

Thank You For Another Year!

Im very thankful that I am given another year to explore. I thought this year would just passed by just like the other birthdays but thank you to my newly found CDObloggers family for making this day extra special. Even if you did made me feel bad this day but as Chiq Montes said "wala man to gituyo" because you taught I already know that you are going to surprise me. Thank you for the candles I blow and my first ever cake. No im not kidding! I dont really celebrate my birthday. There's a reason for it and I just hope someone will change this dumb thoughts or atleast show me that its ok to celebrate... lols (Im being dramtic na!). Anyways, Thank you also for the unending greetings in my Facebook Wall. Gosh! messages flooded there! Thank you to my KMPH family, plurk friends, and to some high school friends also.

Check out more pics at Chiq Montes.

My Desktop At Work

 

 

 This is my desktop at work. With photo of the handsome and gorgeous Guji Lorenzana on the side. It keeps me awake and makes me smile.

 

P.S. I love Kaye Abad and Guji Lorenzana's love team. I hope they will have more projects together... 

 

About Me

Hi there! Welcome to my blog! Im Venussmileygal an online freelancer, a proud single mother and a trying hard blogger. ;) Get to know more about me in this blog and how I live.laugh.love. You can also read some of my drama's and inspiring quotes at Emotera. For things I discover online I share it my online learning blog and online web guide. I also share some tourism information on world wide tourist attractions, CDO Guide and Camiguin Guide, as well as the contributer of some other travel blogs. One of my hobby is taking photos, feel free to check out my photo collections.

More about me...

• I like listening to music and dancing.


• I love to travel.


• I like taking photos and also like to be one of the photo subject. But I still need to work on my confidence!


• I'm friendly and accommodating. According to my friends.


• I am flexible. And easy to get a long since I tend to blend to the crowd and to the different personalities that I met..


• I am tactless. My weakness!


• Im the jealous type. Specially to the people who already have a special space in my heart. Good thing I now know how to hide and control this feeling.


• I am a dreamer. And constantly wishing that all of my dreams will come true.


• I am thoughtful when I don't forget.... lately I've been experiencing "Oh, I forgot" syndrome.


• I am a fighter. Someone once told me that she wish she was as brave as me in facing all her struggles and problems. I actually dont have a choice but to rise again and move on with my life's journey.


• I am emotional and a crying goddess in short Emoteragoddess. I am alone and loveless. I always cry my struggles and heartaches, this way I'll be able to pour out what I feel and ease the burden deep inside. One thing I hate of is me being so sensitive because even if I was just watching or reading crying scenes (drama) and touchy moments it already make me cry in an instant. Geezz... Am I really this open?!


• I am moody. Well, because of everything that I feel are suppressed just within me I tend to sway moods easily. This is the reason why I need an outlet to pour out whatever I want.
  


• I am caring. I know the feeling not being cared that is why I care whenever I can.
  


• I am lazy. Because I think a lot. My energy is drain from thinking that is why I just want to sleep or just seat... and think.


• I love to hangout. I always want to feel happy and forget about everything. That is why when I got a chance, I hangout with friends or even with myself. Enjoying life while I can.


• Most of all I am sweet. This is how I show my love and affection from the people that surrounds me.
  

Check out my answer when ask to tell something about yourself before...

Roman goddess of LOVE and BEAUTY - mother of Cupid (Eros) and beloved of Adonis im cute according to people I met... ahem! Smiling, nice, friendly. I love going to mall, surfing on the net, hanging out at my friends house, watching movies. I also love being called 'Icyblue'...

UPDATED ME!!! Well, Im a naughty and wacky gal, a crying baby but a fighter. Immature but a good advicer when it comes to problems of others. Happy go lucky but dead serious in finding stable job to help my mom & relatives. I love rock n roll but I also love slow music. I enjoy surrounded by a bunch of people but I also enjoy to be a loner and in a serene places. Crazy right?! But thats me Venussmileygal, unpredictable, unexplainable, unidentified flying object ooopps wrong! undefinable person...

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